Chrissy Metz detailed the physical and emotional abuse she endured as a child and teenager.
“For Us, this Is a” star Chrissy Metz revealed in a new memoir of her stepfather beat her and forced her to do weigh-ins when she was a teenager.
Metz, 37, detailed the physical and emotional abuse caused by her stepfather, the Trigger in her new memoir “This Is Me.” In an excerpt published by People, the actress recalled how much her stepfather loved his biological children he had with Metz’s mother, Denise, but not in the same way.
“My mother married Trigger at the court,” Metz wrote. “Soon she was pregnant again, with another girl, Abigail. Trigger loved his two biological children, and was even welcome to Morgana. Me not so much. My mother was always at work, so that they do not see how he treated me.”
Metz wrote her body seemed to “offend” Trigger.
“My body seemed to offend him, but he couldn’t help but stare, especially when I was eating. He joked about placing a lock on the refrigerator. We lived with a lack of food for so long that when it was there, I felt like I had to eat before it disappeared. Food was my only happiness, ” Metz recalled.
The abuse eventually physical, according to Metz.
“I don’t know why Trigger hit me the first time. He has never hit my face. Only my body, the thing that offended him so much. He pushed me, slapped me, punched my arm,” she wrote. “He beat me as he thought I looked at him wrong. I remember that I was on the kitchen floor, after he hit me, and I was begging to know what I did. He just pushed me hard with his foot.”
When Metz was a teenager, she was forced to step on a scale for embarrassing weigh-ins, causing them to believe that she was “huge.”
Chrissy Metz said that she was forced to do weigh-ins as a teenager.
“He would get from the scale of the bathroom and clang hard on the kitchen floor. “Well, the damn thing!’ Trigger would scream. ‘This is what you need to know,'” Metz wrote in her memoirs. “He sat in a chair next to the scale as I am on. “Good God almighty!’ he screamed it every time. The number was about 140 130. Most of my friends weighed about ninety pounds. “Why are you getting fatter?’ he demanded.”
She said that the physical abuse worsened after the passage of time.
“Then the beating was escalated. He hit me, and I looked right in his face. If I had a gun, I thought I would shoot you,” Metz said.
The actress said she began to eat in the middle of the night or in the bathroom, so her stepfather wouldn’t see. They ate the food that can be quickly consumed, including cookies and chips. She added that the food gave her a “short bliss of numbness.”
Metz wrote that she was torn because she loved her stepfather, who is the male figure in her life after her biological father left when she was 8.
“This man has more for me than my father has ever done. He was smart, and I was quietly along with him to watch the Ken Burns ‘civil war’ documentaries on television. I clung to [these points of connection] because I need to figure out why this person could do right by me as a provider, but not to love me.”
Despite enduring years of physical and emotional abuse, Metz said that has a relationship with her stepfather and still makes for him.
“We all go through stuff. But I truly believe that everything that happened to me, happened for me. [I’ve learned] a number of beautiful lessons,” she said.
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