Nolan was diagnosed with Rhabdomyosarcoma, a rare soft tissue cancer, in November 2015 and passed away in February of this year, four-year-old.
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A heartbroken mother has shared an emotional Facebook post addressed to her son, Nolan, two months after he died of cancer.
Ruth Scully, of Maryland, showed the pain of watching her child suffer, and the last miracle before they lost him.
Nolan was diagnosed with Rhabdomyosarcoma, a rare soft tissue cancer, in November 2015 and passed away in February of this year, four-year-old. His mother says that she had long wanted to write about his last days and how he is made of nothing but pure love.”
On a page that she and her husband Jonathan made for “Nolan Strong”, Ruth describes her feelings as “fear of death unlike any other”, in a beautiful tribute that has left readers in tears.
Then she took Nolan to the hospital for the last time, after he had fought against cancer for more than a year, he had not eaten or drunk anything in days and was constantly vomiting. On 1 February, the oncologist, she sat down to hear the terrible truth. The four-year-old the cancer had spread and large tumors were compressing his lungs and heart just four weeks after open chest surgery.
The cancer was no longer treatable.
The desperate mother ran to her son’s room, where he was watching from YouTube.
Me: Leg, it hurts to breathe, doesn’t it?
Nolan: Weeeelll…. yes.
Me: You’re in a lot of pain, don’t you baby?
Nolan: (looking down) Yes.
Me: Leg, this Cancer stuff sucks. You don’t have to fight anymore.
Nolan: (Pure Luck) I don’T??!! But I will for you Mama!!
Me: No Leg!! Is that what you do?? Fight for Mommy??
Me: Nolan Ray, what is Mommy’s job?
Nolan: To me SAFELY! (With a grin)
Me: Honey … I can’t do that more here. The only way I can keep you safe in Heaven. (My heart is shattering)
Nolan: Sooooo I’m going to Heaven, and play until you’re there! You’ll still?
Me: Absolutely!! You can’t get rid of Mama that easy!!
Nolan: Thank you Mama!!! I’m going to play with Hunter, and Brylee and Henry!!
THE LAST MIRACLE
Nolan slept for most of the next few days. His mother made sure that things were in order. “I can not explain what the sign of an Emergency Responder ‘do Not Resuscitate’ order for your angelic son feels,” she wrote.
When he woke up, Ruth had his stuff ready to go home for even a night together. But her son was still engrossed in one another. “He gently his hand on mine and said,” Mommy, it’s OK. Let’s just stay here OK?’ My 4-year-old Hero tried to ensure that everything is easy for me …
“So between sleeping for the next 36 hours, we played, watched YouTube, shot Nerf Gun after the Nerf Gun and smiled as often as we could. An hour or so before he passed he even filled out a ‘Want’! We laid in bed together and he outlined how he wanted his funeral, took his carriers, what he wanted people to wear, wrote on what he was leaving each of us, and even wrote down what he wanted to be remembered as … that was a Policeman.”
To 9 hours, while watching Peppa Pig in bed, Ruth asked if she could leave Nolan for a shower.
“He said,” Ummmm OK, Mama. His Uncle Chris come sit with me, and I turn this way so I can see you’. I stood at the door of the bathroom, turned to him and said: ‘look here Leg, I will be in two seconds’. He smiled at me. I close the door of the bathroom. She said the moment the door of the bathroom clicked, he closed his eyes and went into a deep sleep, the beginning of the end of the life passing.
“When I opened the door of the bathroom, his Team was around his bed, and every head turned and looked at me with tears in their eyes. She said, ” Ruth, he is in a deep sleep. He can’t feel anything’. His breathing was very laborious, his right lung was collapsed and his oxygen dropped.
“I ran and jumped into bed with him and put my hand on the right side of his face. It is a miracle that I will never forget happened….
“My angel took a deep breath, opened his eyes, smiled at me and said,” I Love You, Mom, and turned his head to me and at 11:54pm Sgt. Rollin Nolan Scully died as I was singing ‘You are My Sunshine” in his ear.”
Nolan loved his family and friends with a huge devotion and brought people from all over the world together, Ruth said. “He was a warrior who died with dignity and love,” she added.
In addition to the bereft mother’s heartfelt letter to her son, they shared a memorable photo of Nolan lying on the floor of the bathroom, which shows how her son was too afraid of her, even when she showered.
“Now that I’m the one terrified to shower,” she wrote. “With nothing but an empty shower back now where once a beautiful perfect little boy laid waiting for his Mama.”
To donate to Nolan’s memorial fund, visit his GoFundMe page.
This article first appeared on the News.com.au